its been awhile since ive update, but this is good for right now, i think.

i just want to drive and drive
until the sun rises
and the sun sets
reach the ocean
and just let the waves
wipe out all the thoughts and regrets

letdowns, failures, and mistakes
its the work of masterpiece
but why is it that one's sadness
is someone else's beauty?

the flowers were left on the ground.
kicked in the bushes,
where they were never found.
your left there,
unable to understand.
without a shoulder to cry on,
a touch of the hand.
only a dried flower left
to keep you sane.
until the clouds come
and it begins to rain.
planes go by
in the summer red skies.
you can see the autumn trees
in their eyes.
time passes,
and you don't know why.
you dont have the strength
to get up and fly.
is this what it feels like,
when everything slipping away?
like there is nothing
you can do or say?

These days become identical

Every sleeping night bears a restless morning

Only waking up to put on the disguise

Without a change in my world

Stuck in a moment where I’m dying to get out

Without someone to hold my hand

To help me get through this

This conspiracy against me

Is to much pressure

I’m ready to get away from this town

Into a future where I am where I want to be

Doing the things I want to do

The feud between the brain and the heart

Ended with a heartbreaking thought

Leaving only the brain to die in seconds

Both the brain and the heart were wrong

They knew what was coming

But they didn’t want to believe it

A tear runs down her cheek

He walks away

Without a word

Her heart has been wrecked

Scattered amongst the crowd

The betrayal left her insolvent

Broken and bruised

And under the control of despair

The perversion of this tale

Has made a wreck of me

The anticipation of waiting

And 5 months of heartache

Meant nothing in the end

Leaving only the dubious sensibility

To come into action

3 signs of bad luck in one day

Can make someone drop

From hopeful to hopeless

In a heartbeat

The existence of tears has been procrastinated by my body

Leaving only the cold rush of foolishness inside

When will the feelings become abstinent?

And when will this vermin only be kept in my memory?

The tranquility of absent words

Dispersed the hearts of many

Giving the assurance of secretive despair

My belief of possibility

Left me polluted

Giving me an impulsive supply

Of disconsolation and despondency

People said I was heroic

But I had a moment of deliberate

Knowing that what would happen next

Would obliterate me

Leaving an imprint on my life

Only I chose to be senseless

And permit it to occur

I need to let go

But my heart isn’t ready to move on

It doesn’t realize

There is nothing there

To hold onto

You left me here

Without something soft to fall on

So my bones are twisting

My heart is breaking

And my blood is becoming cold

I want to be far away from here

Away from problems

Away from feelings

I hate being stuck here

But I can’t leave it all behind

And start a new life

I want to move on

But everything is holding me back

It seems life’s just a blur

When nothing is integrity

And your heart is left to putrescence

so sorry i havent updated.

last weekend was hectic, and today was heartbreaking.

ive came up with a few quotes, but not enough to post. im sorry<///3

So I have made these on Friday and last night. So enjoy!

You sit in front of me

But it doesn’t lighten my mood

I can’t dissolve all the intentions I have

And you just don’t have a clue

My mind is off in another place

Away from all this yearning

Bt my feelings are still with me

Invading this paradise

Eating away at my heart

And weakening me in ever way

Fell asleep on the sofa last night

Guess I was too tired of all this bullshit

But all I could think about was you

I think your little jokes

Are more then just friendly

Because these awkward silences

Aren’t for nothing

And it sucks to always get embarrassed around you

With my stupid ability to say the wrong things

Heartache is your specialty

And I keep on coming back for more

This is the coldest winter

Not only is my body shivering

But my soul is quivering

Turning me into a block of ice

 Making it harder for anyone to help

Numbers are invading my head

Three rolls to get the valid number

But I’m on my last roll

And nothing seems to be coming my way

Anger is my secret

Heartache is my weakness

Trust is the impression

Truth is the appreciation

I am almost there

I can feel it

But other peoples’ opinions

Are carrying it further away

If I can get this night to lighten up the mood

Maybe things can go according to plan

So tell me the right things to say

To keep me from going hopeful to misery

I can hear the wind blowing

As the girl is singing

That sweet melody

Of loss and heartache